About a Month Now?

I guess Bar results come out in about a month now. I know I was really looking forward to passing when I was awaiting results. One might have even called it "desperation" to pass. No judgment. But I reflect on what I'm doing now, how tired I am, how desperate I am for just a few moments to myself, how I'm lucky if I get home by 8 and only work a 10 hour day, and knowing that I haven't had a whole day off in over a month...(sigh)...And I wonder if I could go back say 20 years in time and talk to my almost 9 year old self and tell her to change a whole lot of things. I certainly think my life would be a LOT different if I could go back in time and talk to my 10 year old self. Then again, I wonder if I would have been hit by a truck or ended up murdered like my friend from high school. (They just arrested him a week ago, and I hope that son of a bitch gets the needle. No plea deals, no mercy, no nothing. He kidnapped her, raped her, and dumped her body in the mountains in a snow bank. Then he tried to conceal the crime and he's been free since February. I hope he rots in jail, then hell.) So, a month from now, some of you will be overjoyed, some of you will be crushed. A year from now, I have to wonder who will be better off...