Something Like Life?

I was at work today. I billed about 6 hours, but was painfully bored to tears the entire 8. I spent more time than I probably should have spent looking online for Vegas deals. I finally decided enough was enough, and that the deal I have is good enough. Since the female friend I'm going with is very cash conscious, we're staying at a moderate hotel. I refuse to stay somewhere like Sahara or Stratosphere, so we're staying somewhere above those and below like a NYNY or MGM. It's clean, safe, and not a bad location. So what more do you really need?

Even though I'm relatively low on funds right now, I had to book a spa appointment. I NEED one. So I booked it. I am really looking forward to the whole trip, from the drive there to the drive back, but I'm really looking forward to the massage. Mmm...the thought of it is really sexy.

So work is tedious and mundane. And it's not usually this bad, but all of the things I have to do are boring. It's not so bad when I've got a bunch of mundane stuff and a couple exciting things. But everything right now is mundane. And I have a federal court thing due Friday, but it's mostly done. I'm looking forward to finishing it because it's my first federal e-filed document. But it's still kind of blah.

Is this my life? Is this what I thought it was going to be like being a lawyer? Is this the hard part? The easy part? Am I supposed to be bored? I've been reflecting on my life more lately, probably because a friend from high school was recently murdered. What if I died tomorrow? Would I be satisfied? Would I be left with a bunch of "I wish I had" or "Why didn't I"? Maybe I'm just really tired of dealing with a bunch of every day crap and not taking enough time to enjoy the things I like. Maybe I should go buy those D&G shoes I was so in love with. Maybe I just need to take it one step at a time and try not to get too stir crazy about Vegas.

But it's hard to focus on anything else when the mother ship is calling me home...

Maybe I'm channeling my friends who are sitting for the bar right now. If you take a minute to read this, I want you to know that I'm praying for you and sending you positive thoughts. I am pulling for you! Go get 'em!