Ouch

My ex up north has been through a lot last week. I won't violate his privacy about the additional things that have gone on, but needless to say he's been through a lot. Please keep him in your thoughts and/or prayers. He's overall a good guy, and this is rough.

I finished my project for my friend (at least I pray I'm done). It was tough working that many hours in a week and a half. But I should be grateful for the experience, and particularly grateful for my friend having enough confidence in me to hire me to do it. And I should shut up because the money is good.

While there is a lot about my life I would like to and am working on changing, I still need to focus on my many blessings. While I am loosing contact with some of my law school friends (which I suppose is natural), I am so blessed to have the friends I do have. They're awesome, supportive, funny, weird, and the best I could hope for. It hurts that some friends have not made an effort to keep in touch, I still wish them all the best and I'll miss their friendship.

And yes, I'm overweight. That's life. It's my life, anyway. And everyone who judges me based on my weight should shut the hell up. It's my body, you don't know why I am this way, nor is it any of your business. Last time I checked, we all have something. I'm over it, you should get over it.

I want such wonderful things for my friends and family. I think they are just so amazing, and I am lucky to have them in my life. Maybe I should take C's advice and try to see myself how my friends see me. I would never dream of being as hard on my friends as I am on myself. I would never be that demanding of them. I need to cut myself a break sometimes. Easier said than done, but I'm working on it.

And I am going to enjoy this evening, going to bed at a reasonable time, watching America's Next Top Model, and even taking out the trash. I'm lucky to have so much.

Ah, the stages of waiting for bar results...